i resigned from my job unofficially yesterday. i had written out what i was going to say and i walked into my supervisor's office yesterday, shut the door and became hysterical. it was really embarrassing. i had planned to tell everyone else yesterday but just because of how the rest of my day went and how upset i was, i waited until today. today was a lot better-- i think it was just hardest to get over that "wall". i still cried today but mostly it went really well. i just wanted everyone to understand that i really love my job, mostly the people i work with and the freedom/flexibility of my position, but that if i don't leave lawrence now...i will never leave. i would be more than happy to return here but i have to leave first. i think everyone was really understanding.
i don't really want to discuss the rest of my day but i will say that my aunt has been brainwashed by a calvinist and it is pretty shitty. first lecturing my family about how my cousin kent is going to hell because he followed the book of urantia, now unwilling to help her sick mother and using total depravity as an excuse. it is really interesting how crazy religion can make you, and even more interesting how easily someone can be convinced by someone else with whom they are in love. love and religion, really fucked up.
what else? well, now i feel like a lame duck so i'm just trying to stay out of everyone's hair and get all of my projects done. i'm not worried about work, i'm worried about getting all of personal shit done. i need to see my doctor and a dentist before i go, get my car fixed, sell my desk and see as many people as i can before i leave. i don't think i'll be able to sleep between now and whenever we leave. i am really excited and really fucking freaked out at the same time.
and finally,
THE APARTMENT, WE HAS IT!!!!!!!
