i just wrote out this ridiculous blog about how i just found out about the death of an old associate's brother and it reminded me that i need to stop being such a miserable ingrate and then i observed that EVERYONE is a miserable ingrate. i deleted it because it had this air of superiority, like i was super awesome because "i'm not complacent" or something and people who think that their life is hard because of trivial crap like the fact that la prima tazza doesn't have sugar-free strawberry syrup are lesser beings.

bullshit.

we all have our faults. i have several and my biggest is a combination of being egocentric and depressed about my situation. sure, i have some things in my life that have been difficult for me to deal with... i also spend a lot of time whining about my own trivial crap. i'm definitely not better than anyone else. so i'm going to remember that and work to stop being judgmental AND to stop being so self-concerned. great.

i'm trying to think of ways to redeem this blog....

• http://dickipedia.org. it's pretty funny. read it. i enjoyed this part in particular (from flavor flav's entry): "Interestingly, a valid argument exists that Flav is entirely responsible for Public Enemy's popularity among white people who, in 1988, might have been initially turned off by Chuck D's black nationalism, but ultimately enjoyed dancing rappers in funny sunglasses." sigh. too bad that i unfortunately know from experience that chuck d is a dick too.
  
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• okay i'm not getting anything good from stumbleupon. sorry. um...i got a haircut this weekend.
  
• i think i'll just call it a day and submit this entry as one of the suckiest entries evar. I WIN!