this morning i started crying. i told myself that i was crying because i couldn't find anything to wear to work today.

things that are good right now:
a) living situation (and if we had a working television and my cat here i would cry tears of joy every night)
b) my jobs, i am seriously the luckiest girl in lawrence when it comes to my work situation
c) my committment to the task i set for myself last week: apply for one job every day and three on saturdays. good job, me!
d) i have the watchmen on my bedside table, wonder showzen in my dvd player and a working iPod.
e) okay i know that this is living situation-related but holy shit, i have been sleeping on two air mattresses since monday and that and the fact that my room is a cool 72 degrees has allowed me to sleep peacefully every night. it's amazing!!!!!!

for this next week:
- less pasta
- more goodbyes
- less crying for dumb reasons
- more smiling for dumb reasons
- less whining
- more cleaning up my f**king room!
- okay?


oh yeah and i still want to find out what the montauk monster is, jesus christ!